Wow… it’s been a while, hasn’t it?  Ok, so I took a break. But I wanted to give you an update. After my miscarraige,  I did a bit of soul searching,  trying to figure out where I want this journey to go. Hubby and I agree that a baby would be wonderful, but all in God’s timing. So we sort of just let it go. We’re still trying, but not “trying”, like before. We went on vacation, did some much needed recharging of our minds and bodies, and spent plenty of time floating and relaxing in the sun. Then we came back to the real world.
We also embarked on a new journey, by agreeing to host a German exchange student for a semester,  and she arrived about a week ago. So far, it’s been great. She’s smart, funny, charismatic,  and she actually speaks pretty good English… Thank you, Jesus!  Her and our son get along great. Our only issues have been with having to share her! Anyway, today is her first day as an American student and she was super nervous and excited. But I know she’s going to do great. Today is also my little guys first day of being in the Junior High.  A huge step, and he was just as nervous and excited as he is every year.

Speaking of firsts, I decided to start a new year today, too. So I went for a good, long, fast-paced walk. It was nice. Just me, my rock and roll Playlist and the pavement. I’m not making any promises,  but I’m going to try and live out my mom’s favorite thing to nag me about, “To thine own self, be true! ” And really, I deserve better from me. And so do my son and husband.  I haven’t been the best version of myself in a really long time. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been good. Just not great. So it’s time to get my crap together.

I won’t make excuses, but I’ve been in a rut lately… lacking a little bit of my usual pep and joy, focusing on the struggle rather than the journey.  My real estate career has seen more bumpy roads than pleasant  progress. I had a disastrous contact fall apart after two full months of trying to hold it together, and a million other hiccups along the way. Things are looking up now. But in the meantime, my husband’s been working his tail off to make us a living. It makes things stressful,  and it’s difficult sometimes to just let go and let God. But it’s what I need! I’m hanging onto a fear of failure and it’s time to just let go and trust that God is going to either catch me or give me wings… I’ll let you know how it goes!  😉